terribly bushed

HEYo! :) Havent written for very long.. guess it's a gd sign cos at least i know that i've been doing work *beams* It upsets me sometimes when i realise my studies take up so much of my time which i could have spent with my loved ones.. Just ystdy, i decided to visit my grandma in the aft. Though i go there almost every week, it's the first time i stayed at her place for so long in a very long while. Hmm.. she was so happy to see me and she even forgo her fave programme on animal planet to cook brocolli for me. I was so touched cos (i) she rmbrs tt i love brocolli (ii) she could guess i was hungry (iii) i could tell how much she loves me. *aww* Ystdy really reminded me of days of my childhood spent with her. :) The part that upsets me though was when I saw her great difficulty when she tried to make her way upstairs. She declined my offer to help with a smile and said,"y'know, stimes i feel that i'm really getting old." Think it must have been more than 10 yrs since i last tried to calculate her age, cos i rmbr the last time when i did, i tried to use my fingers and toes to help me. Where have i been for the last 10 or more yrs? What have i been busy with? :(

i want to be a doctor!

Hee.. i have a black sesame snap from Malaysia on one hand now :) I love black sesame! Just came back yesterday and i cant wait to share some of the things i thought/read abt during my trip! :) Hmm.. Genting changed so much since i last went there! I guess i was supposed to enjoy myself more since the place now has more games, more hotels and more casinos but being such a nature lover, i wasnt very impressed by the man-made attractions, especially when it was so profit-driven. Perhaps i would have gotten a better break if my family had gone to a beach instead, but i'm thankful for this trip nevertheless. At least the weather was great and i had time to not think abt work *beams* I thought abt my university applications too :)
I have decided that NUS Medicine remains as my first choice and my back up plan would be to read medical science in UK and then re-apply to medical sch as a graduate entrant. :) What do you think? I'm not sure if i should apply to do biomedical engineering. When i read up abt it, there's so little bio and so much physics in it that i'm not sure if i'm up to it. The funny thing was when i read the overview of their course, the first person i thought to be most suitable has to be Matthew!
Hmm.. i was asked recently why do i want to be a doctor so much. Especially why apply to medical sch again if i graduate with a degree in medical science when it's very sufficient to begin a career. I guess i just cant imagine myself being a Medical reseacher with minimal patient contact. Human relations literally fuels me :) Hee.. those who know me will know how i like working with people :) Also, with a medical degree, i'd probably be in a better position to help those in a life and death situations. I dream abt being a freelance doctor sometimes. It just seems such a worthy calling and i'm sure it'll be especially fufilling to help out in the third world countries. During my trip, i realise that it is not just the poor in developing countries that need help, there's an emerging concern abt the threats children in developed countries face too. For example, there's so many people around with different kinds of allergies. It's not only the types of allergies have increased, the severity too. As implausible as it may sound, some doctors say that this self-generated danger could be a modern epidemic. What do you think?
I'll share my other thoughts / discoveries some other day :)