Radios In Heaven

I'm overwhelmed by this sudden saddness tt's scaring myself, cos it doesnt happen very often :( Hmm.. maybe it's cos i almost forgot today is 中秋节. You're probably thinking there's no big deal ya? I guess i just felt so bad, so terrible for forgetting a deal i made with a friend last year. The incident kinda triggered many other thoughts tt cause my nose-diving mood. When i was listening to the song Radios in Heaven, i got reminded of my loved ones in Heaven. I started to miss them badly and all :( I've got the lyrics below, read it and you'll know what i mean.

Actually, i have all the reason to be happy with my day, so i shall stop complaining. I went back my my pri sch out of ennui and curiosity and I felt really welcome, though it's a new school compound and all. A lot of tchrs/support staff actually rmbr me! It's really flattering i must say. My teachers encouraged me to leave my name with the office so that they can contact me if they need a relief teacher next year. It got me so excited, cos i've finally found something meaningful to do after A's.

Alright, i dont feel like writing anymore. I'll be outa town, so i prob wont post for a few days.. Hope my mood will pick up soon!

Radios in Heaven
Your time has already come and I don't know why
The last thing that I had heard
you were doin' just fine
It seems like just yesterday
I was laughing with you
Playing games at Grandma's house
well you taught me well, didn't you?
I hope I'm just like you

Do they have radios in heaven?
I hope they do
'Cause they're playing my song on the radio
And I'm singing it to you

You left before I had a chance to say goodbye
But that's the way life usually is
it just passes you by
But you can't hold on to regrets and you can't look back
So I'll just be thankful for the times that I had with you
I hope I'm just like you

Do they have radios in heaven?
I hope they do
'Cause they're playing my song on the radio
And I'm singing it to you
If they don't have radios in heaven
here's what I'll do
I can bring my guitar when my time is up and I'll play it for you

Tell me can you hear me now
if not, then I can try to sing real loud
What's it like up on the other side of the clouds?
I hope I'm just like you
I hope I turn out to be as good as you


Get what i mean?

Thinking abt Tmr

You wont believe what i did all day. (Alright, it's almost all day) I attempted to read all my TIME magazines! It's unfortunately out of guilt cos the fact tt i have to pay the expensive subscription fees has come back to haunt me. Haa.. if only this happens more often, then i probably wouldnt have accumulated a pile worth of unwrapped magazines :)
I read abt an interesting new exhibit at London's National Portrait Gallery called David. It's an intimate portrait, which was shot in a single long take. Beckham was filmed sleeping, after training in Madrid. The video of the slumbering football hero played on a plasma screen presents a reverential and vulnerable image of this international football icon. It would be amazing if i could see it for myself! I'm not a fan of Bechkham but what truly amazed me was the profound combination of today's advance technology and Art. Think abt it, the artist has created a portrait by a modern means. I'm sure it's intriguing to see someone so famously handsome fast asleep :)The soft flicker of his eyelashes and little movements then -- nothing happens :)
I really have a great liking for modern art. I truly enjoyed myself when i was at Tate modern :) The pic here shows the first exhibit that left me in awe. Look carefully at the orange-lit circle. It's actually one orange-lit semi-circle made into a circle using a gigantic mirror. I rmbr lying on the floor to see my reflection in the ceiling. It's AMAZING i tell you :) Hmm... sadly, my love for the Arts is probably going to make it hard for me to find travelling companion. I rmbr audry saying, "if we go backpacking together, dont bring me to Art-sy places ok?"
Seeing Jamie Oliver on TV today triggered another brainwave. Being a TV presenter/chef of a gourmet programme seemes like an interesting job! *grin* Haa.. too bad i'm prob not up to it cos i tend to get all nervous and tongue-tied easily :) Hee.. guess the passion to cook is inadequate. I'm still sticking to being like Donna Hay. Ivy loves to cook, Ivy loves to give food a touch of ART..
Now, do i sound like i want to become a doctor? *lol*

Childhood Memories

I really wonder where my childhood playmates are now. Wonder how they're doing and i wonder if any of them is amongst my circle of friends now! :) Just today, i found out that Matthew and i went to the same kindergarten. What a coincidence! It'll be super cool if we were even classmates :) Guess we'll have to dig out our photos to find out :)

My cousin was my bestest childhood friend! There wasnt anything we didnt include each other in. I miss her soo much :) Havent seen much of her for years, cos she's always not around for the family gatherings :( Hope everything is going well on her side.

Apple Cinnamon Tea Cake

Tadan! This is the cake that made me so happy today. No one was home to see how thrilled i was and i dont think u're able to imagine how excited i became when the cake was turning golden brown :) *lol* It's such an amazing thing to be able to do sth i've always wanted to do *beams*
Hmm... eggs seems to be a priced commodity here. No shop in my neighbourhood had eggs and i only found 'em after walking a 4 bus-stop distance. Aiyoh.. they're so expensive! but i since i didn't want my search to be fruitless, i bought them anyway :)
Hope i get to bake again soon! :)

das Essen

I was just reading a book by donna hay. I like her job! I want to be cook, be a food stylist, be food photographer and be a food author :) Haa.. what a great deviation from what i think i really want to be now.. I once bounced the idea off my mom and only response i got back was,"In that case, why dont you quit school now?" She never thought highly of a career dealing with food :( Dont think my mom will ever approve :( BUT! i had a brainwave just now. If i ever have enough capital, i'll open a very "ivy" shop. It'll sell some art stuff, some cookware, books, postcards with nice pictures (prob on food, children and nature) and perhaps furniture which i get to design! :) haa.. What a dream! The shop will allow me to do everything i really love to do. Design, Art, Cook, Play, take photos! Ok.. i think i'm overly excited abt something which seems almost impossible to come true :(

I have big plans for today. I'm going to compile all the recipies i love from the books i borrowed ystdy. Hopefully start to read the pile of unread time and national geographic and most importantly, study for bio :)Last paper tmr!

I got myself a bar of orange chocolate ystdy! Whoa, i'll be so fulfilled for a very long time :)

i'm back!

Helllooo!!! I miss my com, i miss the internet and most imptly i miss posting stuff here! :) My internet connection went dead after i updated my windows xp. Gosh.. at first i was quite ~!@#$ abt it, but hee.. but a look back, i realise it was a blessing in disguise. I wouldnt have done was much work at home if i had internet access over the hols *grin* :) Anyway, i must tell you that my first week of exams was quite horrible. Sth is terribly wrong with me this week cos something Terrible has to happen Everyday! Dont laugh i mean it ok!!!
Monday: My watch slowed down during my math paper and eventually stopped. Guess what? i actually wondered for a while how come time was passing so slowly.
Tuesday: My calculator broke down during the exam. It displayed gibberish when i keyed in the values. Can you imagine? i panicked like mad cos i only brought 1 calculator.
Wednesday:I was distraught after my bio paper. It's my fave subject and for the first time, i didnt finish it!!! ahh!!
Thursday: Almost forgot to bring my calculator and my badge broke. Ahh.. and the physics dept totally killed us. I was so upset! i could possibly fail... actually not possibly, definitely. :(
Friday, today!So far, the day has been ok :) My biology paper 3 wasnt tt at all great but i dont blame myself cos i went to bed early last night..

There you go :) My terrible terrible week... Hey Jon, really want to thank you for cheering me up esp aft bio :) I wouldnt have survived this week without you! :)

Mirai e

i really love this song :) Hmm.. wish someone could tell me what it means :)

Hora ashimoto wo mitegoran
Kore ga anata no ayumu michi
Hora mae wo mitegoran
Are ga anata no mirai

Haha ga kureta takusan no yasashisa
Ai wo idaite ayume to kurikaeshita
Ano toki wa mada osanakute imi nado shiranai
Sonna watashi no te wo nigiri
Issho ni ayundekita

Yume wa itsumo sora takaku aru kara
Todokanakute kowai ne dakedo oitsuzukeru no
Jibun no sutoorii dakara koso akirametakunai
Fuan ni naru to te wo nigiri
Issho ni ayundekita

sono yasashi wo toki ni wa iyagari
Hanareta haha e sunao ni narezu

Mirai e mukatte yukkuri to aruite yukou

Been wondering

I feel like a song without the words
A man without a soul
A bird without its wings
A heart without a home
I feel like a knight without a sword
The sky without the sun
cos you are the one

I feel like a ship beneath the waves
A child that lost its way
A door without a key
A face without a name
I feel like a breath without the air
And every day's the same
since you've gone away

i feel cheated!

A pitiful-looking old man approached me when i was on my way to the neighbourhood coffee shop. He said he has lost his wallet and needed money urgently to take public transport. I was initially quite hesitant cos he sounded rather dubious, but since he only asked for $2 i thought i'd just give him the benefit of the doubt. HAIYOH.. after i picked up my lunch and was on my way home, i saw the same old man still lurking ard the void deck. It got me so upset! I dislike it when people take advantage of people's kindness. Perhaps from a more visceral point of view, the old man was really in need of money. If he earns $2 per lie, how many times does he have to lie? :*(