the matrix

when i watched the matrix many yrs ago, i didn't really think too much into what was being said or shown. do you rmbr morpheus offering neo 2 pills: a red and a blue, which neo took the red? I was told that the red represented truth. You see, neo wanted to know what the matrix was all about. He found out that to think that our day-in, day-out world is real was just a perception and Reality was the world is a hoax, an elaborate deception spun by all-powerful machines of artificial intelligence that control us. I was quite amazed by how the plot was so well thought out. I paid attention the littl-est details and there didn't seem to be a slightest ambiguity.
Believe the unbelievable The machines found their infinite source of energy, that's the human brain power. The world we live in was given to us with the ultimate aim to fuel them. How creepy....
The blue pill represented blissful ignorance. Given a choice would you choose the truth or to stay ignorant? Maybe i would choose to be oblivious, for with knowledge comes responsibility. Of course, it's not that i dislike taking up responsibilities but given the context of having to save/awaken the entire world and be such a messiahic figure just frightens me. What abt you?
I like the part which they mentioned abt deja vu though :) i like their explanation :)

Light in your eyes

Give me the eyes of faith,
so that i can love you.
Give me the eyes of faith,
so i will not have fear

i was surprised to sing this 2 lines during in service ysterday and to add to the surprise factor, they were sung in dialect too! It kinda struck a chord within me cos i could almost feel the "faith" the song was referring to. It amazed me how they described it using eyes. I cant exactly put what i felt in words but it's along the lines of a blooming flower or the sight of the first light in darkness. Perhaps it's cos the whole idea of "eyes" and "faith" never failed to leave an effect on me that i'm still thinking abt the song.. ha!:) Ohyes! i guess it's not difficult to understand why i named this entry "light in your eyes". It's another of my fave songs :)
Been thinking about what i really want to do with my life. Although i'd really love to medicine but it all depends on whether the faculty wants to accept me. I'm quite keen in applying to UK, but there's financial considerations bothering me! Argh... I just find it real scary havingt to make such a major decision so soon :)

notoriously the one

Hey, i've been thinking about my gp essay which i'm supposed to write in class tmr. It's quite interesting 'cos this is the first time i'm writing something so close to my heart. " The only child in the family is a lucky child." I was tempted to take the easy way out by disagreeing 'cos it is simplier to focus on how only children(hmm.. i couldn't figure out the plural for only child. "Children" sounds so funny beside only)are usually lonely and are more likely to develope antisocial behaviours. Don't laugh ok? But cos popular thinking often paints an unflattering picture of only children, portraying them as self-centered, attention-seeking, dependent, and temperamental, I felt this sense of indignation to correct that stereotype! I agreed with the statement :) It's quite upsetting that i had to use "freedom from siblings rivalry and comparison" as one of my points, cos i know there's actually an element of fun involved. Don't you agree? Guess that's a question which i will never find the real ans to :)

Eternal Flame

I was just dragging myself home after a long tiring day today when i saw this old couple walking in front of me holding hands. My first reaction was aww.. tt's so sweet! Come to think about it, i've always thought it is a beautiful thing to grow old with someone you love dearly. Hmm.. Have you heard of the song I wanna grow old with you? It's my all-time favourite song! The lyrics is so cute too. Take a look:
I wanna make you smile
When you're feeling sad
Carry you around
When your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is
Grow old with you.
I'll get you medicine
when your tummy aches
Build you a fire
When the furnace breaks
It could be so nice
Growing old with you.
I'll miss you
I'll kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
I need you
I'll feed you
Even let you hold the remote control
Let me do the dishes
In our kitchen sink
Put you to bed
When you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who
Grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

It's just sounds difficult to tell an eternal flame apart from all the special people. Hmm... i was just thinking, the thought of 2 hearts beating together as one for so many many years is so sweet :)

baby talk

Hey! i'm feelin' better today already. *yay* I was lucky enough to bump into jonathan online this morning and now i'm all excited abt visiting him in US after A's. Set, i shall start saving now :) Have you realised that i usually feature pics of children? I love children! .. Hmm...i realise i'm not the only one! At least i've found another 3 or 4 of my friends who're planning to have a big family :) Haa.. i rmbr matt telling me he might just have 4 kids so that they can play mahjong amongst themselves when they're bored. [won't it make more sense to have 3 so he can also join in? *laughs*]Anyway, here's a pic Jonathan sent me. It's hilarious isnt it? Ha.. he also said i looked like the michelin baby. what do u think? *lol*

Living dead

I just set foot home from the doc's. Ahh!!! My blood pressure is horrendously low! .. hmm.. wonder if it's an indication tt i'm under-stressed. Seems like exam stress might be able to do some good for me afterall :) Haa.. I was just thinkin', if my pulse were to plunge somemore, i'd be as gd as a "living dead".  The good news is my doc didn't look too worried, so i guess i need not be paranoid abt it either. Yeah! I should be happy and jumpy after sufficient rest :) Wait and see me make a come back! [i sound too happy to be someone sick huh? i'm just hoping i'd be able to coax my symptoms to leave me :) *smile*] I'll write again soon.

feelin' withered again

i have not a single idea what on earth caught me now.. It's horrible feelin' sick! Earlier this morning at 4, i woke up wanting to throw up. But 'cos there was nothing in my stomach, i just sat next to the toilet. It's really uncomfortable :( I went to sch anyway, hoping it'll just clear up, but no.. it kinda got worse. I left school early to see a doc asap, but i guess there're many others who are ill too, i bet it's the weather's fault. i'm home now aft getting my queue no, and i prob wont see my doc until the next hour. Hai.. I hope it's nothing serious. This classmate of mine was joking how my symptoms sound like morning sickness *laughs* Kay.. i better get some rest before walking to the clinic. Hopefully the rain will stop by then too... ..

Someplace Special

I'm in love with the song Somewhere Only We Know I was doing the usual thing: letting the song just pass my ears without actually paying attention to the lyrics. But when i listened carefully, gosh! i was quite moved (mb not moved, but i cant find a better word to describe how i felt) by what the song said. It reminded me of the song In My Life. Here's the first stanza:

There are places I'll remember All my life
Though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall

Talking abt special places.. hmm.. my fave hangout would have to be cityhall!! I especially like the esplanade/fullerton One area. Hmm.. I was just at esplanade earlier with gek. It sure feels good to warm up my fave seat again! :) I hope i get to do so more often :) *smile*

Ballet shoes

I miss ballet! Those of you who have done ballet would know what chaine turns & developpe are. Well, I was just packing my room when i saw my ballet shoes. I slipped my feet in to them and felt the satin ribbon with my fingers. Hmm.. if the shoes weren't a little tight, it would have felt like i was really getting myself ready for ballet lesson once again! I tied the ribbon and finished it by tucking the excess ribbon away. Perfecto! I skipped around the room and did a few spins. Whoa, i really felt like a ballerina. Guess i really miss the feeling of being graceful and definitely the feel of air whispping pass when i do those spins. Ballet hasn't left any trace on me apart from my flexibility... Haa.. says a lot abt how gd a student i was huh? *embarrased laugh*

Little Red Chair

Hey, my friend took this pic. I just love Pacific Coffee Company. It was Jaymie and my fave hangout and we call it Little Red Chair. Guess those of you who are also fans like us would understand why :) Their comfy red couches are the BEST!

Young at heart

Granny on Swing
I was reading National geographic yesterday when i chance upon this pic. There's something about it tt captured my attention. It sorta reminded me that there's a child inside everyone of us. We may be aging physically, but it's always wonderful to see the inner child :) I've always liked sitting on the swing. Maybe i would be seen doing this after 60 years. Whoa.. 60 yrs, it just sounds so far away...

Matthew 6

Do Not Worry
²⁵"Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you shall eat or what you shall drink, nor about your body, what you shall put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?
²⁶ Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?
²⁷ And which of you by being anxious can add one cubit to his span of life?
²⁸ And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they neither toil nor spin;
²⁹ yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
³⁰ But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O men of little faith?
³¹ Therefore do not be anxious, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?'
³² For the Gentiles seek all these things; and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all.
³³ But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things shall be yours as well.
³⁴ "Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Let the day's own trouble be sufficient for the day.