a blessing in disguise

Just when we're all too quick to judge a mishap is indeed unfortunate,
sometimes a blessing lies beyond what meets the eye.

To find out about sth equivalent to the universe, it's priceless.

drops of jupiter*

To chang: great performance there ;) Have u considered leaving ur hair long for tt 艺术家形象?
To kendrick: you must be curious abt this song u nv knew i like. Below's the lyrics :)

Now that she’s back in the atmosphere
With drops of jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there’s time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like june, hey, hey

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Now that she’s back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there’s time to grow, hey, hey

Now that she’s back in the atmosphere
I’m afraid that she might think of me as plain ol’ jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the milky way
And tell me, did venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you’re wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone
Conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the milky way

要告诉自己...

把悲伤及失望化成极大的力量和鼓励
我能做到的!:)

AnyWay

From a book my tchr gave me :)

People are often unreasonable,
illogical and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind,
people may accuse you of selfish ulterior motives; Be kind anyway.

If you are successful,
you will win some false friends and true enemies; Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank,
people may cheat you;
Be honest anyway.

What you spend years building,
someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness,
they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today,
people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have,
and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis,
it is between you and God;
It was never between you and them anyway.

孙燕姿 - 我不难过

A sad, but nevertheless nice song :)

又站在你家的门口
我们重复沉默
这样子单方面的守候
还能多久
终于你开口向我诉说她有多温柔
虽然你还握着我的手
但我已不在你心中
我真的懂
你不是喜新厌旧
是我没有
陪在你身边
当你寂寞时候
别再看着我
说着你爱过
别太伤痛
我不难过
这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流
我也不懂
就让我走
让我开始享受自由
回忆很多
你的影子也会充满我生活
我并不懦弱
你比谁都懂
虽然寂寞
这会是我
最后的宽容
抱紧我
再抱紧我
这一份感动
请你让我留在胸口
别再说是你的错
爱到了尽头
是非对错
就让它随风
忘了所有
过得比你快活
不要再说
或许这是最好的结果
现在分手
总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
松开你的手
离开你左右
我向前走
这会是我
真正的解脱

Kiss Goodbye

I am more than pleased with my short break. Before i kiss it goodbye, let's hope i will be able to start my revision proper tmr :) These 5 days reminded me so much of the importance of keeping in touch with friends both near and far. I was filled with guilt when the list of friends i have lost contact with seems endless. Come april, i will try to get in touch with them. Amongst them all, i think i ought to write my german host a letter!!

A coincidence.. My new favourite song by li hom - Kiss Goodbye

Baby不要再哭泣
这一幕多么熟悉
紧握着你的手彼此都舍不得分离
每一次想开口但不如保持安静
给我一分钟专心
好好欣赏你的美
幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
还欠你的我不能给
别把我心也带走
去跟随
每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔
痛苦难以释怀
每一次 kiss you goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白
但欠你的我不能给
我才明白爱最真实的滋味
我终于明白

on a happier note

Watching 特写 on Channel 8 made me want to become a teacher. Sometimes i really wonder what it'll be like if i have accepted the teaching scholarship. On one hand, i'm not sure if i will regret cos i'm really happy to be where i am now, especially when i truly enjoy what i'm learning all the time, and on the other, i also see the teacher's responsibility to nurture young souls to be truly noble.
特写 just now was on teachers and prinipal of pathlight school for children with autism. Watching them give them exra attention to help "normalise" these children to encourage them to join the mainstream education schools made me wonder if i could fill their shoes. Teaching those children there requires extra patience and unique teaching styles to engage their attention. The school gave me an excellent impression from their small class size, teaching styles and cirriculum. I can just imagine myself feeling like the mom of the class if i teach there! :) I also thought it was really apt that they incorportated the teaching of daily life skills into cirriculum. Watching them learn how to cook made me miss home economics myself :)

I've been thinking a lot abt relationships lately. Thinking abt such things is a kind of luxury which will only happen again after my finals are over. Been thinking abt friendships too. I'm really happy that in my short-lived break, i contacted a lot of pple and caught up more or less with most of them. Hopefully my effort to send some e cards would make a difference to their day when they receive them too!
Got lotsa plans to send out snail mails, but i'm just not sure if i have the time in btwn my revision. Worse come to worse i'll have to wait till finals are over too.
Meeting Ting and Matt this wkend. A perfect way to start a wk with a perfect ending tt awaits :)

人是现实的

|People being 现实| Y'know.. it saddens me stimes when pple are only nice to you when they need sth from you. It upsets me even more when u discover that it's only going to get worse especially when u step into the working world. But why? Why should it be the case?
Ystdy, wei and i both agreed that somehow, for most of us, our capacity to make new genuine friends decline as we age. Some random guy we meet now who remains as an acquaintance could have become a bossom friend if we had met earlier. Is it cos of the little time we have or we are already comfortable with our current circle of friends?

post exams

|@ Cartel. I love their free-flow bread!|Post exam relac-one-corner-like kinda fun, just like everything in life (see the "one more day!" post), sadly will be over before i know it too. Time to turn on engine to chiong for pros. It's scary how JJ's [considering how pro he is] msn nick has to spell it out. Pros coming soon
Anyway, post exams' been quite fun. Watching final destination reminded me how much i like appreciating a movie for its plot, especially how it challenges my ability to predict what happens next. Most pple will think i have this liking for gore, especially after i tell them how i find Saw and fd not bad. There's really a lot beyond the gore. i think the plot for saw is triple thumbs-up and u have to watch it urself to understand [watch 1 then 2 pls] and as for fd, i think it takes a lot to encourage viewers to watch their sequels despite knowing what the story is going to be abt. I thought their effort this time to incorporate the photos as a clue was not bad, though not original cos i think it's from The Omen I enjoyed it nevertheless considering how much effort the pple put into designing how death comes back to haunt those who escaped death. Wonder if there'll be fd4.
|Banana leaf| We treated our anatomy tutor prof KK tan to lunch at little india which is like a stone throw distance from his office. The fish head curry is very nicee! The whole experience at banana leaf was just wonderful and we almost ate with our bare hands which would have made the whole experience all the more more indian:) Being taught by this very dedicated prof taught me sth. Sometimes i feel that medical students should see beyond medical school. Clinical tutors like this prof brings out the clinical relevance to what we learn and it's going to be very helpful in future. Though he might not be as exams orientated as some other profs, i really appreciate him for the effort he puts into preparing presentations for our tutorials despite his busy schedule! Now, how many equivalents of him are out teaching because it's his passion?
Of all the things i've done for the past few days, the most rewarding has to be catching up with friends and loved ones. I havent seen my granny and i miss her cooking! really looking fwd to tmr's dinner :)
Pple i'm glad i talked to are: wei, christabelle (jiayou for german!), colin, weeping, nicholas (happy commisioning!), angel, yijing, wenyang etc. Just one night made up a lot for my huge hiatus.
gosh i started typing this at 9+ and it's almost 1. says a lot abt how long i've been on msn.

Sunny side Up

|Good Breakfast| It’s been such a long time since I last sat down for a good breakfast proper. It feels real good to be able to slowly enjoy what's on ur plate than to have breakfast on the go. Guess sleep has been more precious and i'd rather wake up a few mins later and have a quick breakfast. Not that i'm regretting not allocating myself with quality breakfast time for the past few mths, but it's nice to do so occasionally.
I was just thinking, sometimes too much of the same thing isnt gd. Perhaps if i have the opportunity to enjoy my breakfast slowly everyday, i may one day actually like to have a quick and chop chop breakfast.
Anyway, besides the amount of time i could spend on breakfast catching up with friends today, breakfast was also extra special with EGG! I love eggs!
I'm looking forward to my next breakfast :)

One More Day!

It's amazing how things u dread seem to hurry to see u and they seem to be over before u know it too! Just one more day, one day of anatomy, and i'll be free! Even though the liberation wont last too long, cos my first professionals are just 3 weeks away, it still helps to think that it'll just be like CAs..they'll all be over before i know it!
I'm looking forward to the europe, the one year and every other thing that comes with my 3 mth break -YAY!-
Anyway, i heard this song playing on my way back. And i got reminded of my lyrics page. I clicked on the link to search for the lyrics and to my surprise, i only found out today how long exactly it's been that i've been neglecting it. Last post was in 2004? Gosh that's even before my A's! Time really flies.. My juniors just got their A'levels result!
I mended the broken link to one of my favourite photos too. Click here to see!
Hmm.. will update the lyrics page some time later.. no time now...
Back to books, just for one more day :)


Piano
白键是那一年海的沙滩　浪花的缱绻　黑键是和你多日不见
弹指间　海岸线　你的泪　我的眼　模糊天边

每个人心中都有架钢琴　尘封在回忆　任凭我只是你的插曲
时间偶尔提起　钢琴偶尔哭泣　那些凌乱片段

如果爱还能再重来　我期待澎湃永远在
每次琴盖打开　便有歌来自大海
如果爱我已不存在　我希望有一段精采　让回忆有所感慨

白键是现在我爱到昨天成全你改变　黑键是原谅我的原谅
好想再弹一遍　手指却只听见　你的抱歉

edit: visiting the page also reminded me of some songs i used to like. It's real nice listening to old songs :)

Some sun is gd for u

|Sun is my mom’s enemy| Some of my friends and relatives say all young pple want their skin to be kissed by the sun to get the bronze, sporty look but as these pple age, they will start to reach for whitening products to keep themselves fair. Ha.. my mom is one of them. Not sure if she ever liked the sun, but since i knew her, a weebit of Sun will never fail to trigger a huge response.
I love the sun. Sun helps us make vitamin D and the presence of Sun always puts a cheery note to the day. Those of you who have been to london will know how grey their weather can be and weather can just inevitable affect your mood.
However, stimes i really dislike the heat that comes with the sun. Guess i'll appreciate the sun more if the surrounding temperature was lower :)

sometimes we shouldnt complain

|New Shoes| A friend of mine i set me a series of pictures which contrasted our lives with those who live in poverty and hunger. While all the pics created quite an impact, i thought this was a little different from the usual photos we see.
Now, when did you just say,"I want to buy new shoe?" Is it really time to change shoes?


Contrastingly, this is yet another pretty car i saw at the NUH carpark.


|Cable Car| I want to be in one of them some day! :)

worthwhile investment

|Nice Car| Sorry for the bad picture, but it was at night and i had to take this photo with night mode using my phone. Y'know, living at KE7 made me realise sth. Assuming that the nice cars parked at the hospital car parks belong to doctors, it makes me wonder how much time these doctors get to enjoy their car. Most of these cars are there when i walk to sch at 7+ and some of them are still ard when i go back to hall late. Do doctors really not have a life?
Sometimes it really makes me wonder what we should really invest in. We spend so much on houses and cars, but how much time do we spend w them? Interestingly, i got reminded on king koil matteress radio advert i heard when i was young. It reminded us that we should all invest on a gd matteress cos at the end of the day, we're supposedly suppose to spend a third of our day sleeping :)

Think about it.

a question

how many sammies are there?

random thots

Hey jayy.. if u're reading this, i just want to tell u that i dreamt of u! we went on a holiday together!! I was woken up by my dad when u were bargaining for sth -lol-
The dream made me think of how unoften we see each other proper compared to rgs days :) Perhaps it was the sph camp last night that made me dream of u! Ohya, ziqian was on the trip too. I cant rmbr much abt him apart from him talking alot and thinking of new ways to earn $ haa..

Anyway, some random thots clouded my head today. In the order of the picture grid.
1: My pager!! Cant believe some kids now prob wont get to see a pager :)
2: Jay, rmbr we made the name pager chain together?
3: Love this pic. Some pple cant visualise how the heart is formed. Just put a coin between ur book and watch the shadow :) It's beautiful isnt it?
4: My granny's cat. She has a tumour in her stomach.. :( My colleagues used to joke that i can bring her to see them.
5: Not a birthday cake actually. I just insisted that i wanted a candle on this cake kendrick baked. haa :) Thanksss! I think it's very yummy
6: Kendrick. I miss u! Have a restful mid sem break. Wished i had mine too!
7: Jacob. Cute little boy with his own hp. Guess who he has in his addressbk? Police- 999. How cute right?
8: Black canyon coffee at bangkok. I wished i can fly to bangkok for a short holiday!! I'm so envious that some of my hall friends are going to travel and some are already back in their hometown playing. The problem is simple: WHY DONT I HAVE MID-SEM BREAK?
9: Picture with the salsa champion. Miss u too matthew! I still owe u ur rum and raisin ice cream :) -ha-

That's all. Got so much to do.. I can nv understood why i cant be productive over the weekend. Fortunately, i got quite a bit of rest :)

Good thing i have a wonderful dad who will make me feel better by saying things like sleep and rest will let me last longer. It's just very impt. Simple things he say never fails to alleviate some guilt in me. Before i go, i just want to end with this.

I LOVE U DAD!

Though this pic reminds me of the bday i was sick. but i thought this is the pic that many pple say i look a lot like my dad.

Have a great wkend everybody

milano

A small gesture like this can make a BIG differences on a BAD day.

Wwhoa.. quite accurate

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have high conscientiousness. Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life. Most things in your life are organized and planned well. But you borderline on being a total perfectionist. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism. You are very emotionally stable and mentally together. Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly. Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

Change Me.

|Change Me| I love gettyimages' very meaningful Change me movement. They are actually going to donate $10 to Friends of the Global Fight Againts AIDS, TB and Malaria for whatever ideas we put through photos! All 3 photos above are quite impactful photos to me and its evident that imagery is indeed very powerful.

The power of love can change everything. Love can move people to fed the hungry children and empathise with then, love makes u appreciate someone more and love can definitely change ur outlook on life. Just look at the new father in the picture, i'm sure the new life bestow upon him will make a HUGE difference in his own life.

Here's an example of what someone has written in support of this movement :)

The words are a little small. Anna wrote,"When the night sky falls and the shores of life get rocky, i need a hand to help keep my steps safe and another to take my eyes from the worry of getting hurt to the stars of hope becoming visible in the dark.."

Today hasnt at all been that great a day. My productivity was OK and i have loads to complain abt my fitness. I decided to test out my fitness and my possible injury today and reality hit me so hard that fitness comes with a price. Fitness has to be earn through endurance, determination, consistency. It's even harder to maintain it and lots of caution needs to be put in to not hurt urself.

Though my lungs and muscles werent compliant today, i'm glad that at least i put on my running shoes after such a long time. On a happier note, my new shoes are getting more comfortable :)

Happy Birthday Matthew

|Happy Birthday Matt|

2nd of Feb is a very important day, 'cos someone very important to me is born on this day!


Though settlers' cafe wasnt opened and we couldnt play boardgames. I had great fun visiting Eusoff hall, getting to know donald and watching the movie Fearless.
It was unbelievable how Matt and Donald tried to finish a KFC family-size meal after lunch at NYDC during the movie! Cant believe that Matt and I actually thought Donald was snoring when he was eating his chicken too :) SO hilarious!! :)

Happy Birthday Matt :)