Surprise in Mailbox

Something appeared in my mailbox today that really made my day!



I'm saving it to read on my long journeys :)

Sometimes it amazes pple how i can read a cookbooks and ikea catalogue for leisure :)

Oh btw, ystdy i drank lemon&lime tea. Today it's apple tea! :):)

if i mayy

if i may exaggerate, this almost brought me to tears....

eee pc In greennnnnnn...









I suppose some of the other colours looks not bad too :)
BUT first, i have to decide if i'm getting one in the first place :) haha

GIAN

Remember the post which i asked myself what i would buy if i have a $1000?

I think the list needs some updates! In green...

I think i might....

1. Find a replacement for my cranky cd player (perhaps i should get a mp3 player tt can be charged and play with speakers or join the ipod club? Burning new cds with new connoction of songs just seems too environmentally unfriendly stimes. My current 5 year old mp player cant be connected to AC and i cant use it to play music in my room:(!

I'm still searching for the ideal thing to fit what i'm looking for. So far only ipod nano + a speaker with a ipod dock comes closest! But it totally doesnt make sense for me to buy an ipod for non-portable use. :(



Looks cool and could be use as a running companion actually..

2. I've been toying with the idea of getting a laser printer for some time. Because my brother inkjet printer ink consumption is crazy and it is super fussy. This printer refuses to print if ONE of the four colours is "depleted", can u imagine if u havent stocked up on ink and u run out of ONE colour at night? The ink catridges always still has ink when they've been declared empty too :( Laser printer should be faster and more fuss-free! I wonder if $1000 can get a me a duplex laser printer. I would be so happy not having to flip my papers for printing double-sided.

To be honest, i havent thought of a printer replacement since i started to use fineprint :)

3. I might get a new phone. Treo is an awesome phone, but i'm not very lucky with it. I think getting a faulty replacement unit is the ultimate joke. hai

You prob can guess... HTC Touch Pro is the perfect phone for now :)



4. I might get a good bag, something that will last and designed for comfortable carrying. I've been getting shoulder ache far too often despite starting to carry my textbk in my hands and not in my bag. I think i should enroll myself to back sch like a/prof chia. This is occupational hazzard isnt it?

Havent seen any bag i really like yet. But i like the bag i bought to use in Yunnan.. Gab thinks it looks like a camera bag though :) haha
Unfortunately, it's too small for A4-size stuff :(



5. $1000 should be sufficient for a short holiday to somewhere near

No recent holiday ideas.. i wonder if $1000 is sufficient for my India elective.. hahaha

6. Get a mini LCD tv for my room cos my TV broke down?

yayyyy... I have a new LCD TV in my room already!

7. Custom make a shelf for my room with an odd measurement of remaining floor space?

I think abt this on and off, cos storage space is best created when personalised :)

8. Treat for the Parents :) Holiday? Renovate their room??

Havent thought of a good short holiday place for parents yet.. any suggestions???

9. Memory pillow! I was surprised by how well i slept at my aunt's place and i suspect it is the memory pillow tt didnt leave me with a neck ache :) As sleep is becoming priceless, we should make the best of what little we get right?

I laughed when i got reminded that my friends think i would bring a memory pillow to a deserted island if i could only choose to bring one item. Hmm... I havent been actively thinking about it, but it should be a worthwhile investment. Besides, sleeping is one activity we spend the most of our lives doing.


10. Asus Eee PC an ultra-compact notebook with a 7-inch screen that weighs 2.03 pounds. It's attractive to me cos of it's size, weight and affordability. Of course, if i think rationally, the hard disk space and ram is limited. Anyway, good things usually doesnt come complete without a good price. I read from cnet that new ultramobile CPUs are coming soon.. so hopefully there will be many more laptops like these!



Eee PC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm actually damn gian cos it is on sale at NUS. The spec is better than the one shown in the pic above... How how how?
While taking bus to give tuition today, i thought how useful Eee PC would be on the bus. I could write my write up, watch some show or even read my recipes :) If i should give myself ONE more reason to buy it, i could use it to play my music too :)
That will solve item #1 on my wishlist. hahaha



11. KITCHEN AID!!! I dont think i need to explain why, but maybe i will get one in green.

I will never stop to dream abt this until i get it

When will i ever fulfil everything on this list? :)

Treat for the ENT

Today i'm going to try Strawberry tea :)

Smells pretty yummy :) Waiting for it cool a bit now. Hopefully it tastes yummy too!

I finally found a playlist with pieces by David Garrett. They're awesome! Now i'm contemplating getting his cd :)

Now i know why some pple call him the Violin God.



Listen to my current favourite here.

Tea Treat

I finally got to try the tea kendrick brought back and it's not bad :)





I chose to begin the box of assorted tea with peach and passion fruit :)
My room actually smells of peach and passion fruit now :)

the other option

I just read wenyang's blog and what he wrote got me thinking about how life different would be if i hadnt gone to RJC. Y'know, i realise in life there are many questions we'd never know the answers to. We may speculate that if we had chosen the other option, life could be better or more interesting, but the truth is, we'd never know. Interestingly, there'll never be a basis for comparison, just like if i had gone to another jc, i would be wondering what it would be like if i had stayed in the rafflesian family.

Just like yang, i got reminded about JC at jianping's house ystdy. Sam asked me which JC i was from and guessed that i was from HC. Not surprising cos it's not the first time anyway :) I rmbr how kenny asked me in year 2 which class i was from in HC cos he has never seen me in school! Ystdy, the NJC people were shocked to hear that i considered going NJC before. The conversation then went on about how school spirit-less the school is and how i should be thankful that i didnt make the wrong choice.

The truth is, i did consider going NJC because i really wanted to take german to a new level. I was good in German! It was made a more difficult decision cos my most encouraging friend in german class has already decided to take the course up. Well, i can only speculate what it could be like now. Perhaps i'd be doing some degree in german, doing something else on a road less traveled, OR i could be in in Medicine nevertheless. I wouldnt know :)

I realise i haven't written this on my blog before and i dont really know how many people i have shared this with. It wasnt easy deciding which JC i wanted to go cos i had to decide among so many factors. Some of them would be:
1. New environment
2. Familiar faces, finally seeing ur RI counterparts in the same school
3. Distance to travel
4. School culture

Interestingly, 20 mins before the JAE (is it called JAE?) closed, HC was still my first choice. After speaking to my dad, kor and qiantai and a click on the mouse, i shifted RJC up and submitted the form.

It really wasnt an easy decision to make cos i really wanted a change in environment which Yang persisted on and went to HC. There were so many things going against RJC actually... like
1. Damn far
2. Sch building is damn old
3. Same old culture

In retrospect, i realise my life was steered away from the original intended direction twice. My dream secondary school was TKGS and in a way HC too. Interestingly, if i had gone to TKGS, whether to go RJC might not be a question at all since there were only at 2 TKGS girls i knew of in RJC. I'm not that likely to consider RJC i think.. But then again, i would never know. I could be the 3rd TKGS girl too. haha

I cannot speak for yang, but i believe we prob do not regret the decision we made cos our respective decisions has offered us a lot. On one hand, he feels that there is a lack of continuity of the good times he had in RJC, on the other, i question why i didnt let myself try a a new enviroment. I guess, it's inevitable that the curosity for the outcome of the other option will always remain cos we'd never know :)

FINALLY

I finally found the memory i've been trying to recall for the past few days and i am thankful that it is actually a pleasant one to rmbr, always :)

I'm so grateful now.

The izzie Stevens in Me

i actually have an urge to bake, but i'm afraid that once i start i cannot stop.
What am i going to do with all the cookies, cakes or muffins?



Until i watched Grey's anatomy, i thought i was the only one in the world who finds baking therapeutic. Isobel Stevens bakes when she doesnt feeling too good.

Lost and Found

I intended to come back early today to have a restful afternoon, but after hearing the unfortunate news, i couldnt help it but remained in a comtemplative mode since.

Surely the unfortunate incident didnt happen for me to say,"Oh,ok."
I felt that the friend was good enough a friend for me to be affected and think repeatedly why this had to happen.

If i were to leave today, moments before i go, i'd be full of regrets cos there're just too many things i have not done. This led me to evaluate the life i've been living. I've been far too lazy, far too unmotivated and far too undeserving of all the good things i've been bestowed with. Really, i should starting tmr to not take anyone, anything and any day for granted.

I grew restless at home and saw today as a good opportunity to take my new shoes for a test run. Besides the fact that the experience was a world of difference from my past shoes, i was glad that i attempted to rediscover the me that used to enjoy running.



Reality can hit you real bad stimes and a mini version of it was how i am able to conquer the hill i used to do so with ease in the past. This, i thought, could potentially be corrected. All i need is some discipline, hard work and consistence and i can kiss my unfit self goodbye. BUT, imagine waking up one day to find out that something u treasure the most is gone for good. It's imaginably painful right?

Interestingly, we're losing each day for good too, but how many of us remind ourselves daily not to waste each day? Perhaps sth like that might do me some good...



I have lost so many things that i ought to find back, if possible. If not, stop losing anything meaninglessly!

If today was the ur last day living, what would ur biggest regret be?

Perhaps today was really a wake up call.
Perhaps I ought to learn to live life in a way that i wouldnt regret if i were to leave anytime.

Leave life fully if u havent, please.

From <<一切完美>>

A: 爱一个人，应该为所爱的人好好的爱惜自己
B: 你的爱很清醒

"有一句话虽老土可是很适合我们... 我们没有缘分，而爱情偏偏需要缘分。"

"你是否有想过当你所爱的人的影子？那就有永远不用离开他。"

”人总是在失去的时候才知道时间的速度"

“一秒钟遇见一个人
一分钟认识一个人
一小时喜欢一个人
一天时间爱上一个人
如果注定今生没有缘分...
就要用一辈子忘记一个人"

"只要学会包容不完美，就能一切完美"

everyday, today

i got reminded today how we shouldnt take anyone, anything and any day for granted...

Monday Blues (Not)

The only thing i was not so happy about today is having to start my day super early for the ward round. But on second thoughts, i better get used to it now, since it's going to be the case for a long time to come :)

Anyways, i sometimes lament about early days in hospitals cos i'm a morning person. Meaning i'm most fruitful and i should spend these precious hours doing something i really need my brain for, like reading my textbook. So you can imagine, if i dont get to read in the morning, i most likely dont get much done at the end of the day cos in the evening i'm always so tired. Hai.. sometimes i really wish i'm more disciplined and dont have such excuses :)

Today is a pretty good day cos i managed to find time to drop by queensway to find a pair of shoes to replace my nike shoes when the glue-stuck sole finally falls out. Friends who know me will know that i dont really like shopping for a specific item and prefer to buy things i like at first sight. Nevertheless, I thought today was a rare opportunity to get the shoes since i do not know when i'll be free next or get posted to AH again. It was a little discouraging at first cos i realise that most shoes now are white-base, when i have a preference for dark-coloured-base shoes cos they remain pristine looking for a longer time :) To make things worse, it wasnt nice shopping with my stupid heavy bag!

Since most shoes were largely white, i thought i might as well try asics which is also white-based too. Thankfully the uncle quoted me a pretty ok price and I settled with my first pair of asics :) yay.. Hopefully i will have many enjoyable times running in them to come!

Next happy thing was getting the coloured QA book for my student at bras brasah. It was totally unplanned cos the idea only came when my bus 33 happen to pass by bras brasah:) Thankfully they had it or i'd have made a wasted trip! I'm really hoping that my student will find this book useful, since it's coloured, it will prob help her rmbr the colours of the reagents which she has difficulty rmbring all the time :):) I was so sad last wk when i couldnt find it and realised that i must have given it away! Thankfully she now has a copy :)

Next good thing is i bought myself a new umbrella! I was real upset that i left my favourite brolly in the cab i took in Lijiang. I saw the same umbrella at bugis and it cos $44! I was tempted to get it, but what if i lose it again? Thankfully there were some brollies on sale and i bought one at $13 which was quite a steal :)

Lastly, today is pay day! If not for the recent costly lesson i was taught, perhaps today wont have as much significance :)

Bad things happen for a good reason.. right?

My student is back and i shall start tuition now :) Hope everyone's monday went ok!

Baking Started

I'm so happy today cos i actually overcame the inertia to bake again.
It was such a horrible inertia to overcome cos i had to
1) Pick a few recipes
2) Stock take
3) Stock up
4) Bake
5) Clean up

i was stuck long enough in (1) cos everything looked interesting and worthy of my first try! And it doesnt help that i have quite a few new additions to my baking book collection recently.

I very much wanted to try baking muffins, but i was afraid my oven just isnt up to it! i will be damn demoralised if they dont turn out right in the last step.

Then was the stock take. Gosh, i really havent baked for a gazillion years cos a gazillion things were expired! A lot are going to expire in aug.. i wonder if i will have a sudden surge in desire to bake in the wks to come!

Stocking up was fun cos it meant a visit to my g'old fave Phoon Huat. When i looked around, i was in awe cos they now carry quite a lot of new things!

Just like the star sprinklers i thought were apt on the chocolate bars that i made for my mother's sunday school students :)



I really love it!



... And i hope the kids will too! :)



Now i wonder when i will itch to bake again :)

post-osce saturday

A few friends commented that it's been a while since they last heard i baked.
It's true.. i cant even remember when was the last time i baked!

Today feels like an unusually 'light' day. Perhaps now that osces are over, it's like one less worry in my life. In retrospect, i think osce is a gd idea cos if not for it, we might only pick up the examination skills much later. agree?

Back to baking... my crave to do so came back after a friend asked me for recipes and I realised how untouched my cook books have been.

Sadly, i also realise tt i can no longer rmbr recipes at the back of my head. Gone were the days i could recite to u the ingredient list and how much of each ingredients u need to buy. sigh

If i want to bake today, i need to do stock check... I need to check for expiry dates and check if i have sufficient ingredients at home. In the past when i bake consistently, i knew at the tips of my fingers what i have at home and how much :)

Oh well, hope i'll have a gd saturday ahead :)

popcorn squeezing

there's this scene from a show stuck in my head tt i feel a lot for, somehow

a close-up shot of this girl squeezing her popcorn while quietly fighting back her tears in the cinema

somehow.

Perhaps u'd need to know the context of the story to fully appreciate why the director did this scene. To me, the scene was really well done.

shot of the popcorn was simple, yet added so much more to the scene :)

心痛

My phone fell twice in less than a week. My heart hurt awfully bad, cos this time i dropped it on the road.

This may be a small thing... but perhaps it's cos my threshold is lowered today.

why?

Forensic patho lectures were interesting.. Surprisingly, i didnt find the pictures of the unnatural deaths as disturbing. I'm actually more disturbed by the people responsible for them.

I was reminded today how innately carnal humans are. Some of the things people do to gratify, vent and escape is unbelivable.

Hope the day will get better!

At least i think i made my mom's day by buying megabite fish and chips :)

你没想像中爱我

I like this song from the 10pm show :)
Does anyone have it?



你小心翼翼 牵我手
其实是担忧 藏不住我
自尊也投降 活在她之下
我 好傻

你字字句句说 你不爱她
那又是什么 让你害怕
我疑惑但是原谅 因为你留下
我 好傻

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来 你没想像中那么爱我
我不懂该拿什么安慰我的难受
你的存在 让我更寂寞

你寸步不离 像天使的她
挥霍我的爱 从不放心上
我有一丝无奈 也有一些明白
该 放开

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来 你没想像中那么爱我
我不能再从你的怀抱感觉到什么
不爱我别再说 假装爱那是撒盐在伤口

谁说我不在意空等候
原来 你从来都没深刻爱我
我才懂不是我不心痛
其实是心没了感受

Tired day

I realise these few days that i actually learnt a lot of useful knowledge in A&E. Unfortunately, i cannot rmbr a lot of it :(

I wish i had memory of 'better resolution', cos stimes i rmbr where in the bk or where in the notes the answer lies, but all i can picture is a fuzzy image and i cant retrieve that info.

Well, on an optimistic note, i realise that it takes demoralising moments to 鞭策 yourself to improve. Sometimes i wonder when the transition from know it for a while to know it for good happens. I'm amazed myself how i can rmbr damn a lot during my tuition. How did all the info become so permanent?

I'm enjoying the 10pm show.. I like some of the ideas they explore.
Do you think people's opinion of you matter? Interestingly, it only occured to me today that we see ourselves less than the rest of the world watch us everyday. Does that make how we look like to the rest of the world very important?

Think about it :)

Interesting

I read this off someone's blog which in the context of the post is likely to be a quote from a movie.

"I love him for the man he wants to be, and the man he almost is."

What someone wants to be and what you think that someone is going to be may change.

Does this mean that the truest love is one that u love the person for who he/she innately is and that doesnt change?

another thought

after i published the last post, i got reminded of another thought i had the other day.

Sometimes u just need ONE person to say ONE right thing when u're in a difficult situation. It will have the effect of the right key unlocking the lock and the situation just seems not so bad after all.

For example, in a situation with a palpable tension, sometimes it just takes someone to say something (un)intentionally funny and the whole atmosphere will change.

I wonder how it feels like being the person analogous to the missing piece of the jigsaw completing the better picture.

Interesting isnt it?