Pleasant Surprise

I just saw a new flower bud in my Gerbera daisy pot! :)
It makes me happy when i can now anticipate it to bloom. yay!

On a random note, while having dinner and eating fish just now, my fish had a gigantic bone! It reminded me of Prof A's lateral cervical xray with enlarged retropharyngeal space and a sneaky visible fish bone.

U know, Prof told us tt there was once a patient who had a fish bone lodged at the esophageus which perforated the aorta.

SO, fish bones can be damn dangerous too!

I dont Understand

Today, the speaker at church painted and awfully terrifying picture of hell and contrasted it with the unbelievably perfect heaven.

I wondered for the first time today why were we created to be judged and be sent to heaven or hell?

I dont understand.

I also learnt today that i love and get hurt too easily.

Why? I dont understand.

最长的电影

I heard this song on Jaymie's blog. I think songs with piano cover are quite nice :)

haha.. I also got reminded of wenyang talking abt this song, qt funny :)



我们的开始
是很长的电影
放映了三年
我票都还留着
冰上的世界
脑海中还在旋转
望着你慢慢忘记你
朦胧的时间
我们溜了多远
冰刀画的圈
圈起了谁改变
如果再重来
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵
再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了
要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎

Post Call

I'm incredibly tired after overnight ambulance run.

My brain isnt functionally optimally and i'm not learning things well! :(

The trouble with night duties is that they mess up your body clock and now i feel that i have day/night dissociation.

Today i also feel incredibly stupid, inadequate or just plain chui.

On another note, i'm actually very thankful for ambulance run, cos we hardly get the chance to learn abt and see what paramedics do first hand and ride the ambulance with them. To be honest, i was quite impressed by how much they know and how solid their knowledge is!

The paramedic i was with explained cardiac asthma to his trainee very well and it's amazing they learnt all that in their training which is significantly shorter in duration than our bio and physio lessons combined! Another thing this paramedic demonstrated was he was damn clear about what he is supposed to do. He knew how to delegate work, handle the patient physically, knew what to say and knew how to cope with pressure of the relatives on top of his role of a paramedic.

Despite feeling chui.. i'm actually looking forward to my next ambulance run on monday.

Big Fish

This has to be one of the best movie i've seen :)

I rmbr vividly seeing the movie poster at lido beside the isetan entrance under 'coming soon'. The movie poster actually captured my attention and i made a mental note to watch it. I didnt have time to watch it when it was showing in the theatres and thereafter i saw the book a few times and the picture made me wonder what the story was about.

I'm so glad i finally found a link that can stream this movie rather decently. Despite it taking me hours to watch the entire movie, i'm glad i perservered!

Y'know, i only realised Big Fish is produced by Tim burton today, the same person who produced edward scissorshand. It's amazing that i have childhood memories of it. I rmbr vividly when my parents watched it on video, the garden that edward created was very pretty! I have to watch the show too... i think i was only 4 or 5 when i saw it :)









Also, i wonder how many of u rmbr "The Nightmare Before Christmas". I rmbr being quite terrified by how the characters look. Very stick-y and scary indeed for a child! No wonder i found "The Corpse Bride" looking somewhat familiar when i saw the trailer some yrs ago. Hmm... If i have the time, i will definitely watch these 2 stop-motion animation film :)

Perhaps i like how somewhat unconventional touch Tim burton always have on his films :)

Anyway, about the movie Big fish proper...
I shall leave out details about the story just in case u havent watch it (go watch it!) I was thinking, tt must feel quite awful to not know your dad and believe that he has a 'second life' elsewhere and then realised that the stories he he's told about himself which u stopped believing were actually true (at least not entirely factitious). On the other hand, it probably hurt a lot too when your son stops talking to you because he doesnt believe who u told him u really are.

Perhaps this is a reason why i always choose to believe everything until there's enough reason why i shouldnt believe something. I suppose most people are quite the opposite, they believe only when they have enough reasons to.

When was the last time u were doubtful about somebody when he/she tells u his/her reason for doing things? Next time when it happens, try asking urself what if what he/she's saying is the truth?

Just like how the Will Bloom in the story stopped believing his father's 'tales' when he grew up, i believe many of us learn to be skeptical and distrusting of others as we age. What happen to that inner child?

As mystical as the adventures of Edward may sound, i like how steadfast he is to his wife. And even though the wife played a very small role in the movie, i felt that their relationship came through as one tt was built of unfaltering trust. If a son can suspect that a father is having an affair, why wouldnt the wife? A wife that trusts and knows and believe how good a person her husband is wouldnt :)

"they say when u meet the love of ur life, time stops... and that's true. But they dont tell u that once time starts again, it moves extra fast to catch up"

I also like the part when Edward described how he met his wife at the circus. I love the part when he felt that time stood still when he saw the love of his life and then the next moment u realised that so much time has passed. Just imagine meeting someone u like, isnt it true that for a moment u wonder about the possibilities of what lies ahead. You could be thinking, thinking and wondering and then the next moment, u realised that so much has moved on when u were still in that moment :)

I have a liking for details.. i also loved it when the director chose to freeze the popcorn in mid air to really accentuate how "time stops" and it was nice how Ed walked though them :)

I have so much more to write but i will leave it till the next time i watch the movie whole and smooth with no disruptions :)

Despite the movie being truncated very frequently, i already enjoyed the movie so much! Does anyone have the dvd?

I shall end with my favourite quote..

"Have u ever heard a joke so many times and you've forgotten why it's funny? Then u hear it once again suddenly it's new. You'll rmbr why it was funny in the first place."

If u havent seen this movie, pls do! :)

无能为力

张敬轩 - 无能为力

醒了我却还是闭着眼睛
只有这样才能留住梦境
还看见我最爱的眼睛
还有你偷偷亲吻我的情景
醒了我都不会挣开眼睛
是怕泪水慢慢吞噬心情
原以为我们有了约定
就能够听见朋友祝福的声音
还来不及和你和你在一起
数着天空里坠落的星星
你已经离我而去爱没有继续
原来我根本不是你的唯一
我紧闭双眼摒住呼吸
根本就不敢在夜里想你
谁知道在白天遇见了你
看见你新的唯一靠在你怀里
我流干眼泪不能呼吸
我无法面对最后这个结局
曾经我们有过无数话题
爱到最后我们对爱竟会无能为力

醒了我都不会挣开眼睛
是怕泪水慢慢吞噬心情
原以为我们有了约定
就能够听见朋友祝福的声音
还来不及和你和你在一起
记住属于你的一点一滴
你已经离我而去爱没有继续
原来我根本不是你的唯一
我紧闭双眼摒住呼吸
根本就不敢在夜里想你
谁知道在白天遇见了你
看见你新的唯一靠在你怀里
我流干眼泪不能呼吸
我无法面对最后这个结局
谁会想到曾经相爱的人
还没到最后我们对爱已经无能为力

This must be quite an old song. I find the lyrics quite meaningful :)

On another note, today i spent a lot of time looking out of the car window when my dad was driving. I noticed that the sun was up and the clouds and sky were very pretty! Whenever i'm the driving, i inevitably dont get to appreciate how the cityscape is changing along the ecp but today i actually noticed that there were people in the ferris wheel!

I also looked at numerous car plate numbers today. I have this habit which i havent told anyone.. whenever i see SGH xxxx, i will determine if xxxx is bigger or smaller than 8100 then i will tell my dad's car in my heart, hey, tt's ur younger/elder bro/sis. haha.. quite 无聊 u might say. Of course, it's also not very intellectual... considering gab's friend doing math major will look at carplate numbers and think equations consisting of the numbers to give the ans 10. Quite amazing right? I bet it's a gd way to exercise ur brain :)

Of course, i also look out for other things like new car plate numbers, cars of the same 'generation' as my dad's previous cars, SBP, SDE, taxi plate numbers, SFL, S or anything interesting like this in the top left corner:)



Stimes i believe fun can be found or created... it's whether u bother to or not :)

Have a gd weekend friends. Rest well.

Holiday Mood

I cant wait for tmr! Tmr is holiday eve and friday is holiday!

It's unfortunate tt i have to go back to sgh on sat though :( Or i will have a nice long wkend.

Lost!

I lost sth quite precious to me on Saturday...

I hope audry can find it in cambridge for me!

COMPLETED!

YAY! i finally finished the data entry for public health screening!

Crossed eyed and tired :(

Dear Me

Dear me,

I must admit that i was marginally discontented that my day at the hospital wasnt fruitful!
I think it's an expectation thing again, cos i was really hoping to catch some action in the ED today but i found myself stranded in a sea of trolleys not knowing the exact flow of work and i ended up speaking to random patients.

No system.

My day ended later than expected but i knew that i had to do something / accomplish something so that i can feel better :)

Thankfully Aunt Anne preztel cheered me up a lot! I also bought new socks, a small clipboard to clip my logbook papers and a small pouch to protect my Emed book :) Yay..

I'm actually thankful that sometimes i know just how i can make up for my day. It's not possible to depend always on others ya?

Tmr shall be better :)

A New Beginning

A real new beginning today.

I'm in great anticipation of what Emergency Medicine has to offer!
New knowledge, adrenaline rush, calls, procedures... bring it on! :)

On a random note, i changed toothbrush today too.
In a way, it's another new beginning :)

I also have data from 500 questionnaires to key in.. when will i begin on tt???

Respite

I'm just home but i must say that i'm proud that even though the fact that my hols are over have sunk in long ago, i still made the best of the time i had left at my aunts place

I swam again! To think that i used to swim once in 2-3 yrs, this is quite noteworthy :)

U know.. i love my aunt's pool because it's nice both in the day and night. The first time i swam on friday, i was amazed when i looked up and saw a lot of stars. And today, when i swam in the afternoon, i was amazed that there were 2 zones of water. Part of the pool is in the shadow of the apartments and when u swim, u can feel the transition from cool to warm water. Amazing.

Then because the pool isnt very deep, u can see ur own shadow on the swimming pool floor v clearly. I was so entertained by the ripples i create with each stroke. Amazing :)

Perhaps i'm the kind of person who is very easily amused.. But i really do get entertained quite easily :)

I'd be happy if tt's all the pool can offer. But i'm lucky that there's a warm/cold jacuzzi. It was damn shiok =)

I shall post some of the photos i took...


The view from my aunt's living room.




The guest room with my aunt's new baby seat.


It was nice to use the laptop and see the kids splashing in the baby pool.


Night time :)

I must say i learnt a lot of things for the past 3 days... Besides gaining some antenatal care knowledge (cos i attended the class with my aunt), i also learnt tt i like kettle chips and i saw peanuts freshly dug from the ground!



When i was at IMM Daiso the other day.. i bought myself these 3 things.







I finally can add on to my wind chime collection :) yay

Before i end, yang.. this pic is for you!


For those of you who havent noticed, yang's msn nick has been [03S78][Good Man Campaign] Yangmehmeh86 for the longest time :)

At Aunt's Place

I wish i can upload the photos i took of my aunt's place but i didnt bring my camera cable! -sigh- This place is awesome because the guestroom i'm sleeping tonight and typing this entry faces the pool :) It feels like a resort!

Anyway, today was an interesting day cos this is the first time i'm spending a whole day with someone pregnant. Some of my friends found it funny when i said my aunt's 'very pregnant' but to justify the term, some people actually think my aunt is expecting twins! I guess my aunt's tummy appear bigger cos (1) She and her husband are both very tall, hence she's probably having a 'tall' baby (2) She's tall to begin with and so the whole package also appears bigger.

At baby fair today, i learnt that it can be very expensive to raise a child. I happen to chance upon a stroller that cost $989. In my astonishment, my aunt said there are people who buy prams that are over $1000! 我的天啊！

She spent quite a bit in just a day!

I also learnt today that pregnant women are perpetually hungry. I cant rmbr how many meals we had! Lunch was at Imperial treasures, popiah and mee rebus at simlim square, tea at IMM, 2 serving of fruits each pre-dinner and fish porridge for dinner/supper. I'm not even pregnant and i am following a pregnant diet.. 我的天啊！

Fortunately, we went for a swim at night. It was damn shiok la! Cos when i looked up the sky was clear and i could see a lot of stars. The pool was also much cleaner and there was a warm jacuzzi! wx and wenyang, it is comparable to the national library osim leh :) haha
I only swam for as long as my aunt got her exercise, i think i will swim again tmr! She told me that the water is a blessing cos it helps her with the weight of her tummy. It makes me wonder how heavy it feels like to be pregnant.

I just realised that i forgot to list corn soup in the above list.. I didnt know corn+carrots+wolfberry cooked in stock my aunt made herself can taste so good. Yum! I should try to cook it myself one day :)

Hmm.. i can only think of a minor imperfection of my day and it is the terrible internet connection! I cant msn properly :( Maybe i should go build my simcity till i'm tired enough for bed :)

Will post again soon! I'm so sad tt hols are ending.. It feels like it just started :(

Wkend ahead

My Aunt is now very pregnant and because her husband is also out of town, she invited me to stayover at her place for a couple of days!

Hopefully i will be of some help keeping her company and helping her with some chores. She really makes me wonder how inconvenient it is to have a tummy so big that she cannot see her toes :) I will ask her tmr!

She plans to go to baby fair at taka tmr and she is also craving for imperial treasures, so i'm expecting to spend at least half a day in town. After that she is also hoping to swim and i guess i will accompany her too. I'm praying for good weather tmr :)

Interestingly, she will be going for antenatal care lesson on Sat which i am invited to attend. haha.. If she needs me to drive her there, maybe i will go too. haha

What a different and interesting weekend :)

A New Beginning

The thought of a new beginning never fails to make people anticipate in eagerness for better changes to take place.

It just occured to me today that there are so many mini "a new beginning"-s in our lives everyday. From the moment you rise, it's a beginning of a new day and today is and will be different from yesterday! We make decisions everyday and each decision carrys with it an action which we all have to live the consequences of. In a way, every choice made becomes a new beginning!

For a moment, i was amazed by the thought that the me today will not be the same me tmr because we encounter so many things in a day and they inevitably have impacts on us in one way or another. In fact, a new knowledge gained might change the way you make your next decision. Hence, the same me is actually very short lived!

I am different from yesterday because I played mahjong today and became a lot more familiar with the game, i watched animatrix, i installed SPSS and have plans to learn how to use it so i can finish my PHS report and i also played simcity for the first time!

I wonder who i will be tmr. Interesting isnt it?

Anyway, each birthday marks the actual new beginning of year for a person. I hope Kristy has huge plans for the her new year! Happy Birthday Kristy!







Kristy's bday was celebrated at Teoheng and that's wanzhen in the background singing!
In the foreground is the souvenior Kristy, Gab and Wenhui brought back from their dive trip!

Check out the close up pics :) They got this shell for me cos they thought the pattern on it looks like hearts :)

Supper was at hongkong cafe and christelle ordered a bowl of beancurd big enough for distribution for the whole group! She treated us some of cos :)








Thank you Kristy, Gab and Wenhui for the beautiful shell from Tioman! :)

精神粮食

i was taken by surprise that 精神粮食 may come in small forms.

Nautilus

The answers to why the nautilus shell has so many compartment is found on wiki!
If u want to know too, click here!

Wiki is the best.. i feel a bit wiser today, abt one of my fave shells :) yay

Happy dreams

I dreamt that i was off at some beach picking seashells with my cg mates. Haha.. i was very happy cos the shells off the shore were all very pretty!

Haha... i suspect i had this dream cos my cg mates and kristy are off to tioman on a dive trip. Hope they'll be able to see pretty things :)

What's the big deal about seashells anyway? I've been collecting them since young! And i like them so much that i cant bear to pack them away in a box to give way to my thick medical books and files :)



Bottow row: The smaller shells are organised according to sizes in the drawers
Middle row: The big ones that i'm proud of! :)
Top row: I used to collect pretty bottles too.



Bottom row: This is what i mean.. according to sizes :)



Middle row: Pardon the poor lighting.. it was pouring outside and my room lights werent enough to light up my cupboard.



Middle row again: I like the sea urchin shell. I used to call it 'the brain' in pri sch cos i thought it looked like a brain. haha

Can u see the shell with brown stripes? It's one of my favourite :)



This is a closer view! :) Quite pretty right? It's called nautilus.
(by the time i took this pic, the rain stopped, hence the lighting is better! yay)



This is another of my favourite. I rmbr how careful i had to be when i bought it home. It'd be imprefect if any one of the spikes break. Anyway, i liked this a lot last time cos i had this impression that mermaids used them to comb their hair :)




Anyway, the nautilus has a very pretty cross section! Unfortunately, till today i havent figure out why the creature needs so many compartments. Does anyone know?

Speaking about the creature, here's a pic of it! I wonder if kristy, gab and wenhui will see them when they dive.




I found out today that these are called sea dollars. I really like the floral patterns. Again, did this pattern happen by chance or is it for survival purposes?


Detailed spikes.


Cowry. These shells used to be used as currencies!

I shall end off with last two pictures of my shelves


Top row showing gab's koala, colin's many-in-one russian doll, RJC brick my angle koped for me, photo of my primary sch classmates, my cousin's green photo frame and many bottles in the background. Yay